THE LAST OF THE BAKER STREET
IRREGULARS, Or WIGGINS’ STORY
A Novella
By
Santanu Ghose
Foreword
Finally its here— its been a long time in the pipeline— lot of thoughts, mulling over, reading, imagining, and feeling— feeling the human heart of a boy left behind. This is till date one of my most personal stories the very inception of which stirred my soul. For a part of me is Wiggins— the protagonist.
So read it at length and leisure. Feel the throbbing heart of the boy Wiggins and The Irregulars of Baker Street.
I. The Boy in the Gutter
London had a way of making a child old
before his time. It did not do so all at once. It took a penny here, a meal
there, a night spent under a stair, a winter cough that would not leave the
chest. It took the soft parts first: the expectation that a grown person would
keep a promise, the belief that tomorrow might be kinder, the habit of asking
for help.
Wiggins had been twelve when he first
understood that a boy could disappear in a city of millions without anybody
noticing. His mother had been gone for three days. The woman who rented them a
corner of a room in a court off Dorset Street said she had probably gone to
find work. Wiggins knew better. His mother had gone out with a man who wore a
red scarf and had not come back from such outings before. He did not hate her
for it. Hatred was an expensive luxury, and hunger left little room for it.
He slept that week in a doorway behind a
baker's shop. At dawn the smell of warm bread crept under the door and made his
stomach twist. The baker sometimes tossed him a heel. Wiggins learned to be
awake when the shutters opened, grateful without appearing grateful. A boy who
looked too hungry invited trouble.
He had a quick eye, a quicker tongue, and
a talent for being overlooked. He could tell which gentleman had money by the
cut of his coat, which policeman was bored, which shopkeeper had a soft spot
for children, and which alley would lead him out of a bad situation. These were
not accomplishments he would have chosen. They were simply the tools he had
been given.
The first time he heard of Sherlock
Holmes, he was sheltering beneath the awning of a tobacconist while rain came
down in silver ropes. A boy named Billy, who had a front tooth missing and a
permanent smell of onions about him, told him about a gentleman in Baker Street
who paid street boys to notice things.
“Not nick things,” Billy clarified.
“Notice things. There's a difference, if you can afford it.”
“What's he want noticed?”
“Anything. Who goes in a house. Who comes
out. Whether a man carries a parcel. Whether his boots are muddy.”
“Sounds like a copper.”
“Worse. A clever one.”
Wiggins laughed. He had no faith in clever
gentlemen. Clever gentlemen usually had clean hands because somebody else did
the dirty work.
But the next morning he went to Baker
Street.
He remembered the stairs, the smell of
tobacco, and the extraordinary stillness of the room at the top. He remembered
Dr Watson's broad kindness and the tall, thin man by the window, who looked at
Wiggins as if the boy were a page of print he could read at a glance.
“You are Wiggins,” Holmes said.
Wiggins had not given his name.
“Am I, sir?”
“You are. You have been sleeping outdoors,
your left boot is split, you have eaten recently but not well, and you have
been following my movements for two days. You are curious, cautious, and not
entirely honest.”
“That's a fine lot to know about a chap
before breakfast.”
Holmes's mouth moved, almost a smile. “Can
you observe a man without being observed yourself?”
“Can I? I been doing it since I could
walk.”
“Then perhaps we can be of use to one
another.”
It was the word *we* that caught him. Not
*I*. Not *you, boy*. We.
For a while, Baker Street became a country
with its own laws. There was work, and there was payment. There was Mrs
Hudson's occasional plate of food, and Watson's habit of asking whether the
boys had warm coats. There were cases in which a clue found by a ragged child
mattered as much as a clue found by a gentleman with a microscope.
And there was Holmes.
Wiggins did not understand him. No one
did, perhaps. But he admired him with the fierce, unexamined devotion a hungry
child may give to a man who notices he is alive. Holmes did not pat his head or
call him a poor little fellow. He asked questions and expected answers. He paid
them. He remembered names. When Wiggins made a good observation, Holmes said
so.
That was enough to build a cathedral out
of.
Wiggins began to imagine that the great
detective might do more than employ them. Perhaps he might gather them up, one
by one, and put them somewhere safe. Perhaps he might teach them, find them
apprenticeships, see that they had shoes that did not leak. Perhaps, in some
quiet corner of his mind, he might become the father none of them had managed
to keep.
A boy may make a father out of a man who
has never offered to be one. Wiggins would spend thirteen years learning the
cost of that mistake.
II. The Governor's Boys
The Irregulars were never an army, though
Wiggins liked to think of them as one. They were a loose republic of children
who knew the city by its back doors. They had no uniform beyond patched clothes
and the common knowledge that a penny saved might mean supper. They came and
went. Some had families, if a family could be called a drunken father and a
mother who had long since ceased to look up. Others had no one at all.
There was Billy, who could imitate a
constable's whistle. There was little Sam, solemn as a clergyman and twice as
stubborn. There was Peter the Patch, whose coat had more repairs than original
cloth. There was Neddy, who could climb a drainpipe like a squirrel. And there
was Annie, who cut her hair short, wore a cap too large for her head, and could
run faster than any of them. She had a laugh that arrived before she did.
They called Holmes “the Governor” when he
was out of earshot. In his presence they called him “sir”. The distinction
pleased them. It made the secret world of Baker Street feel like their own.
Holmes never promised to rescue them. He
did not speak of charity. He gave them tasks, instructions, and money.
Sometimes he gave them books. Once he gave Wiggins a small volume on the habits
of birds because Wiggins had asked how a man could know which way a message had
travelled by looking at a feather.
“You must learn to distinguish curiosity
from knowledge,” Holmes told him. “Curiosity asks the question. Knowledge does
the work.”
Wiggins took the book home beneath his
shirt, as if it were a stolen jewel.
The boys learned to read a street as
Holmes read a face. They knew when a hansom had been standing too long outside
a lodging house, when a gentleman had changed his boots, when a woman was
frightened but determined not to show it. They could pass through a crowd
without disturbing it. Holmes called this “the advantage of being disregarded”.
Wiggins sometimes wondered whether the
advantage was worth the price.
At Baker Street, he saw another sort of
life. There were books enough to build walls with, a fire that did not go out
for want of coal, clean cups, a clock that worked, and grown men who argued
over ideas rather than over the last crust. Watson asked after their health.
Mrs Hudson scolded them if they tracked mud upstairs. The boys were not invited
to sit at the centre of the room, but they were allowed to stand near the
hearth.
Wiggins began to stay after the work was
done. He found reasons to linger: a question about a newspaper, a message not
yet delivered, a report that could have been given in half the time. Holmes
rarely noticed the extra minutes. Watson did.
“You like being here, Wiggins,” the doctor
said one evening.
“It's warmer than Whitechapel, sir.”
“I daresay.”
“And there's books.”
“Then you must read them.”
Wiggins looked down, embarrassed. “Some of
them are difficult.”
“Difficult things are not forbidden
things.”
That sentence stayed with him longer than
Watson could have known.
Yet the Irregulars' lives did not change
simply because they had found a gentleman who valued their eyes. Billy was
arrested for a theft he had not committed and was sentenced to a term in a
reformatory. Neddy fell from a roof and spent months unable to walk properly.
Peter disappeared after his stepfather took him to sea. Annie was sent to a
laundry by a woman who claimed to be her aunt. Sam's cough worsened until he
could no longer run messages.
Holmes helped when a case required it. He
spoke to a magistrate once, found a doctor for Neddy, and paid for a coat for
Sam. Wiggins was grateful. He was also angry, though he did not know how to say
so.
There were so many boys. So many girls. So
many lives coming apart in rooms where the wallpaper was black with damp.
Holmes could solve a mystery in an afternoon, but he could not solve London.
Wiggins did not yet blame him. He only
waited for the day the Governor would turn his attention from the criminal
world to the children who had served him so faithfully.
III. The Uses of a Shilling
The years between twelve and sixteen went
by in a blur of errands, cases, and changing faces. Wiggins grew taller. His
voice dropped. His shoulders broadened, and the old skill of slipping through a
crowd became less useful when he could no longer pass for a small boy.
Holmes noticed the change before Wiggins
did.
“You are becoming conspicuous,” he said
one morning.
“Can't help growing, sir.”
“No. But you can decide what to grow
into.”
Wiggins had hoped for something more
definite. An apprenticeship, perhaps. A place in a respectable office. A
recommendation to a man who owned a business. He had thought Holmes might
arrange it as easily as he arranged the movements of a criminal suspect.
“Have you considered a trade?” Holmes
asked.
“I have, sir.”
“And?”
“Can't afford to learn one.”
Holmes looked at him for a moment. “I
shall consider what can be done.”
It was not a promise. Wiggins knew that.
Still, he carried the words about for weeks.
He began to save. Every shilling from the
Irregulars' work went into a tobacco tin hidden beneath a loose board. He
wanted a room of his own, a proper bed, a coat that was not another boy's
cast-off. More than anything, he wanted to remain near Baker Street. He feared
that if he left the orbit of Holmes, he would fall back into the dark.
One evening he found Annie waiting outside
the house. She had been away for months. Her hair was longer, her cheeks
hollow, and there was a small cut at the corner of her mouth.
“Thought you'd be a gentleman by now,” she
said.
“Thought you'd be Queen of England.”
“Couldn't get the crown to fit.”
He bought her tea and a bun. She told him
the laundry had been cruel, that the woman who ran it took most of her wages,
and that she had run away. She had slept in a lodging house where men watched
the girls too closely. She wanted to go north, where a cousin might find her
work.
“Holmes can help,” Wiggins said.
Annie's expression changed. “Can he?”
“He's helped before.”
“He's helped with his cases. That's not
the same as helping us.”
Wiggins felt the words as a slap. “He pays
us.”
“A shilling isn't a future, Wiggins.”
He had no answer.
He took her to Baker Street anyway. Watson
listened and did what he could. Holmes was out. When he returned, he asked
precise questions, wrote a note, and gave Annie money for the railway. He did
not ask her to stay. He did not ask what had happened to her before she came
back.
Annie left the next morning.
Wiggins watched her climb into the train
and felt a curious shame. She had been brave enough to ask for a life. He had
been too frightened to ask for one himself.
The tobacco tin filled slowly. Then his
mother returned, thin and feverish, and the money went to a doctor and rent.
She stayed three weeks. In the fourth, she vanished again.
Wiggins was not surprised. That was
perhaps the saddest part.
By seventeen he had found work in a
stable. He cleaned stalls, rubbed down horses, and learned the language of
harness and wheels. He still did errands for Holmes, though less often. The
cases had become grander, the boys younger. Wiggins saw himself in them and
sometimes disliked what he saw.
Holmes had not changed. He was still
brilliant, exact, and difficult to reach. When Wiggins spoke of the others,
Holmes listened with an expression that might have been concern or merely
concentration.
“I cannot be responsible for every child
in London,” Holmes said once.
“No, sir.”
“It would be foolish to pretend
otherwise.”
“Yes, sir.”
“And you must not confuse a useful
arrangement with an obligation beyond its terms.”
Wiggins looked at the fire. “I don't,
sir.”
He did. He had confused them from the
beginning.
IV. The Children Who Went
Missing
There were no funerals for most of the
Irregulars. A boy disappeared, and after a time the others stopped asking.
London swallowed children quietly.
Billy came back from the reformatory with
a hard face and a talent for finding trouble. He took to carrying messages for
men who did not ask questions. One night he was stabbed outside a public house.
Wiggins heard of it two days later from a costermonger. By the time he reached
the infirmary, Billy was dead.
Neddy never properly recovered from his
fall. He took a place in a match factory, where the air was sharp and the work
ate at his lungs. Wiggins visited him once. Neddy's fingers were yellow, and
his breathing made a faint whistling sound.
“Still climbing?” Wiggins asked.
“Only stairs,” Neddy said. “And not too
many.”
Peter the Patch was last seen on a ship
bound for the Baltic. Someone said he had become a sailor. Someone else said he
had fallen overboard. Wiggins chose to believe the first account, though he
knew how sailors drank and how the sea kept its own counsel.
Sam died in a charity ward during a winter
of bitter frost. Wiggins stood outside the hospital after the nurse told him
there was nothing to be done. He had brought an orange. He kept it in his
pocket until it grew soft.
Annie sent one letter from Leeds. She had
found work in a dressmaker's shop and had a room with a window. Her handwriting
was careful. She wrote that the city was less cruel when one had a key to one's
own door. Wiggins read the letter until the folds began to split. He wrote
back, but the letter came returned. The address was no longer known.
Each loss made him older. Each one also
made him angry with Holmes, though Holmes was nowhere near the event. The anger
was unreasonable, and Wiggins knew it. But grief looks for a door, and blame is
often the first one it finds.
He remembered a day when Holmes had
praised the Irregulars in front of Watson. “They are remarkably efficient,” he
had said. “Their knowledge of the streets is invaluable.”
Wiggins had glowed with pride.
Now he wondered whether Holmes had ever
seen beyond their usefulness. Had he seen Billy as a boy who needed a safe bed?
Had he seen Annie as a girl who deserved more than a laundry? Had he understood
that when he called them “my boys”, they heard something much larger than a
term of convenience?
Perhaps Holmes had never meant it that
way. Perhaps the boys had made a father out of a professional courtesy.
The thought hurt more than the deaths.
When Wiggins was twenty, he left the
stable and took a place as a cab driver. The work was hard, but it was honest
enough. He knew the streets, the horses, the temper of the traffic, the moods
of policemen. He could earn more in a good week than he had ever imagined as a
child.
He also discovered that a man might be
surrounded by people all day and still be entirely alone.
The cab gave him a seat above the crowd,
but no place in it. He carried merchants, clerks, ladies, drunken gentlemen,
and men who spoke of the poor as if poverty were a contagious disease. They
climbed in, gave an address, and climbed out. Very few looked at him.
He had become what he once watched from
the pavement: a man with a horse, a vehicle, and a little money in his pocket.
Yet he had no home to return to that felt like home. He rented a narrow room
above a public house in Whitechapel. The walls sweated in winter. The mattress
dipped in the middle. On a shelf stood the old tobacco tin, now filled with
letters he had never sent.
V. The Cabman of London
At twenty-five, Wiggins knew London by the
weight of its weather. He knew the damp that settled over the river before
dawn, the yellow fog that turned every lamp into a blurred moon, the oily rain
that made the stones treacherous, and the peculiar cold that rose from the
Thames and found its way through a man's boots.
He drove from early morning until late at
night. He took fares from railway stations, theatres, hotels, and public
houses. He learned which gentlemen tipped and which believed a cabman should be
grateful for the privilege of carrying them. He learned to keep his face blank
when a passenger spoke of servants, wages, or the undeserving poor.
Sometimes, when he passed Baker Street,
his hands tightened on the reins.
The house was no longer the centre of
anything. Its windows were dark. The familiar rooms belonged to other people
now, or stood empty between tenants. Wiggins had heard that Mrs Hudson had
died. He had heard that Dr Watson had married and moved away. Of Holmes there
was the report that he had retired to the Sussex Downs, where he kept bees and
occupied himself with country pursuits.
Bees.
Wiggins could not decide whether to laugh
or feel insulted. The greatest detective in England, who had once sent a dozen
ragged children scurrying across London, now spent his days watching insects.
He tried to picture Holmes in a straw hat.
The image would not hold.
On certain evenings he drove past the old
haunts of the Irregulars. The narrow courts seemed smaller than he remembered.
The lodging houses had new names but the same smell. Children still slept in
doorways. A little boy with a torn sleeve watched the cab go by, and Wiggins
felt the old instinct to stop.
He did stop once.
“What's your name, lad?”
The boy shrugged.
“Got somewhere to sleep?”
“Got somewhere to mind your own business?”
Wiggins almost smiled. “Fair answer.”
He gave him a coin and a wrapped sandwich.
The boy took both with the wary speed of a creature expecting the gift to be
snatched away.
Wiggins wanted to say something useful. He
wanted to tell him about Baker Street, about Holmes, about the possibility that
a clever boy might be seen and valued. But he could not bear to offer a hope he
had no power to fulfil.
So he said, “Keep yourself out of
trouble.”
The boy laughed. “Where's that, then?”
Wiggins drove on with the question beside
him.
He began to look for faces in crowds. A
man with Billy's missing tooth. A woman with Annie's quick stride. A limping
fellow who might be Neddy. He knew they were not there. Still his eyes
searched. At twenty-five, his vision was often sore by nightfall.
He wondered whether Holmes ever looked for
them too.
VI. The Passenger in the
Fog
The night he met Holmes again began with a
mist so thick that the lamps seemed to float without posts. Wiggins had taken a
fare from Charing Cross and was returning empty when a gentleman raised his
stick near the Strand.
“Cab!”
The voice was older, but its clipped
precision travelled through the fog unchanged.
Wiggins drew up. The gentleman stepped
inside, giving an address near Paddington. He wore a dark overcoat and a
travelling cap. His face was partly hidden, but when the lamp caught it,
Wiggins saw the long nose, the high forehead, and the eyes that had once
examined him as if he were a puzzle.
His hands went cold.
“Mr Holmes?”
The passenger looked up sharply. For a
moment the years fell away. Then recognition settled across his face.
“Wiggins. Good heavens.”
“Still at your service, sir.”
Holmes studied him. “You have grown into a
respectable-looking fellow.”
“Had to grow into something, sir.”
A silence followed. The cab moved through
the fog, wheels hissing over wet stones.
Holmes asked about his work. Wiggins told
him he drove a cab and was doing reasonably well. He did not mention the room
above the public house, the letters, or the nights when he woke certain he had
heard Billy calling from the street.
“And the others?” Holmes asked.
Wiggins looked at the back of the horse.
“Which others, sir?”
“The boys. Your associates.”
“Some dead. Some in prison. Some gone
where nobody knows. Annie got as far as Leeds, I think. Sam died. Neddy too, in
a manner of speaking. Billy was stabbed. Peter went to sea.”
Holmes's expression grew still. “I am
sorry to hear it.”
“Are you, sir?”
The question escaped before Wiggins could
stop it.
Holmes did not answer at once. The cab
passed beneath a gas lamp. For a moment his face was clear.
“I remember them,” he said.
“Do you remember them as boys, sir? Or as
the little fellows who could get you an answer for a shilling?”
Holmes's eyes narrowed, not in anger but
in attention. Wiggins knew that look. He had once been proud to call it upon
himself. Now he wished to escape it.
“You are unjust,” Holmes said quietly.
“Maybe, sir.”
“I employed them because they were
capable. I treated them with respect.”
“Yes, sir. You did. More than most.”
“Then what is your grievance?”
Wiggins gripped the reins. He had
rehearsed this conversation in his room, in the stable, in the dark hours
before dawn. In every version he spoke with dignity. Now his voice shook.
“We thought you might care what became of
us.”
Holmes said nothing.
“We were children, sir. We were hungry and
cold and nobody's. When you called us your boys, we believed you. I believed
you. I thought perhaps you'd help us get out. Not just out of a case, or out of
a scrape. Out of the life. I thought you might find us places, teach us, make
sure we didn't end up dead in a lane.”
“Wiggins—”
“I know you never promised. I know that.
That's the trouble, perhaps. You never promised, but we hoped all the same.”
The horse slowed as the traffic thickened.
Holmes looked out into the fog. “I was not
equipped to be a guardian to a dozen children.”
“No, sir. I see that now.”
“I had my work. My own limitations. I did
what I could.”
“And we were grateful. We were. But we
needed more than what you could do.”
The words hung between them. Wiggins felt
suddenly ashamed. He had wanted a reunion, not an accusation. He had wanted
Holmes to say his name with warmth, to ask whether he was happy, to tell him
that he had been missed.
Instead he had opened the old wound.
At Paddington, Holmes paid the fare. He
placed a sovereign in Wiggins's palm.
“For old times,” he said.
Wiggins looked at the coin. “I don't need
charity, sir.”
“It is not charity.”
“What is it, then?”
Holmes hesitated. “An acknowledgement.”
Wiggins closed his fingers around the
gold. “I wanted that when I was twelve.”
Holmes stepped down. The fog gathered
around him.
“Wiggins,” he said, “you were an excellent
boy.”
“I was a boy, sir.”
Holmes seemed about to speak again. Then
he tipped his hat and walked towards the station.
Wiggins watched until the fog swallowed
him. The sovereign lay heavy in his hand, and for the first time he understood
that a man could receive what he had once longed for and find that it had
arrived too late.
VII. The Letter from Sussex
For three days Wiggins carried the
sovereign in his waistcoat pocket. He did not spend it. He did not even take it
out. It seemed to him a small, polished monument to all the things that could
not be repaired.
On the fourth day he went to a stationer's
and bought paper. He sat at his narrow table that evening, lit the lamp, and
wrote to Sussex.
“Dear Mr Holmes,
“I hope this letter finds you well. I have
thought of our meeting and fear I spoke more harshly than I intended. I do not
take back what I said. I only wish I had said it better.
“You asked after the boys. I have been
thinking of them. I remember Billy's laugh, and Annie's running, and Sam's
serious face. I remember Neddy climbing a wall with one shoe missing. I
remember all of us waiting outside your door, hoping you would need us.
“I believe you did good for us. I also
believe we needed more. Perhaps both things can be true.
“I am a cabman now. I have a horse named
Martha, who is cleverer than several gentlemen I have carried. I have a room, a
steady trade, and no great complaints beyond the weather and the price of oats.
“I hope the bees are well.
He read it twice. Then he added a final
sentence.
“I wish you had known how much you meant
to us.”
He posted it the next morning.
The reply came a fortnight later, in a
neat hand on thick paper. Holmes wrote that he remembered Wiggins clearly, and
that he had not understood the depth of the boys' attachment. He had regarded
their arrangement as practical and mutually beneficial; he now saw that the
children had understood it differently. He apologised for the pain caused by
his failure to see what they needed.
There was no grand declaration. Holmes did
not claim that he had loved them as a father. He did not pretend he could undo
the past. But he wrote that Wiggins had been more than a useful agent, and that
his courage and intelligence had impressed him.
At the bottom, almost as an afterthought,
he wrote: “If you are ever in Sussex, you may call upon me.”
Wiggins folded the letter carefully.
He read it once more before placing it in
the tobacco tin. Then he sat for a long time without moving.
It was not the letter he had dreamed of as
a boy. But it was a letter from the man himself, and it did not ask him to
pretend that nothing had happened.
VIII. A Room with a Window
The invitation might have remained in the
tin had Wiggins not met a woman named Mrs Bell.
She kept a small lodging house near
Marylebone and had a son who was apprenticed to a printer. Wiggins first met
her when he drove her home from a hospital. She was a broad-shouldered widow
with a brisk manner and a voice that could make a cab horse reconsider its
conduct.
“You look half-starved,” she said when he
helped her down.
“I assure you, ma'am, I'm a picture of
health.”
“Then the picture wants repainting.”
She paid her fare and went inside. A week
later she hailed him again. By the third journey she had learned his name, his
trade, and that he lived above a public house.
“That will never do,” she declared.
Wiggins laughed. “It's done very well so
far.”
“That's not the same thing.”
She offered him a room in her house. It
was not grand: a narrow bed, a washstand, a small fireplace, and a window that
looked over a courtyard. But the sheets were clean, the roof did not leak, and
the door had a lock.
Wiggins hesitated over the price. Mrs Bell
named a sum lower than he expected.
“I don't take charity,” he said.
“Nor do I give it. I take rent. You pay on
Saturday, and you don't bring drunken friends up the stairs.”
“I haven't any friends of that
description.”
“Then we'll get on famously.”
He moved in the following week.
The room changed him in ways he could not
have predicted. He slept more deeply. He kept his shirts folded. He bought a
small vase and put a sprig of rosemary in it because the room seemed to need
something alive. He began to read again, slowly, from the books Watson had once
recommended.
Mrs Bell's son, Thomas, was seventeen and
apprenticed to a printer. He was a quiet lad with ink beneath his fingernails.
One evening he found Wiggins puzzling over a newspaper.
“That's a difficult article,” Thomas said.
“I can read, thank you.”
“I didn't say you couldn't. I said it was
difficult.”
Wiggins looked at him. “You always this
polite?”
“Only when I'm frightened.”
They laughed. Thomas began bringing him
newspapers with the harder words explained in the margins. Wiggins, in return,
taught him how to judge a horse's temper and how to tell when a customer was
about to cheat him.
It was a modest friendship. That was its
beauty.
One Sunday, Mrs Bell asked whether he had
family.
“Not that I can rely upon.”
“Then you must make some.”
Wiggins looked down at his tea. “Is that
how it works?”
“It's how it sometimes works.”
He thought of the Irregulars. He thought
of Holmes. He thought of all the years he had spent waiting to be chosen by a
man who had never understood that he was being asked.
Perhaps belonging was not always something
a person was given. Perhaps it could be made, awkwardly, by people who kept a
place at the table.
IX. The Sussex Road
Spring came slowly. The fog thinned, the
parks brightened, and the horses grew restless with the warmer air. Wiggins
saved enough for a day away from London and, after several weeks of hesitation,
took the train south.
He had never been to Sussex. The
countryside seemed impossibly wide. Fields rolled beneath a pale sky; hedges
divided the land into green rooms; sheep stood like scraps of cloud against the
slopes. The air smelled of earth rather than coal.
Holmes's cottage stood beyond a lane
bordered by hawthorn. Wiggins approached the gate with his hat in his hand. He
felt ridiculous. He was a grown man, twenty-five years old, and yet he was
suddenly the boy on the Baker Street stair, waiting to be admitted.
Holmes opened the door himself.
“Wiggins.”
“Sir.”
For a moment neither moved. Then Holmes
stepped aside.
“Come in.”
The room was bright and plain. Books stood
beside jars and boxes connected with the keeping of bees. A violin rested in
its case. There was a fire, though the day was mild.
Holmes looked older. The sharpness
remained, but his face had settled into itself. He seemed less like a blade and
more like a blade put away.
They spoke first of ordinary things. The
cab trade. The weather. London traffic. Martha, the horse. Holmes asked
intelligent questions and listened to the answers. Wiggins found himself
relaxing.
After tea, Holmes led him into the garden.
The hives stood beyond a row of lavender. Bees moved in and out with a busy
certainty.
“You have taken to them,” Wiggins said.
“They are interesting creatures. Their
society is more orderly than ours, though not necessarily more compassionate.”
Wiggins smiled. “You always did like a
system.”
Holmes considered him. “I have thought
about what you said.”
Wiggins looked at the hives.
“I have spent much of my life studying the
causes of human behaviour,” Holmes continued. “I have been less attentive to
its consequences. I saw the boys as capable instruments. I did not sufficiently
consider what it meant to them to be invited into my work.”
“You gave us something, sir.”
“Not enough.”
“No,” Wiggins said. “Not enough.”
Holmes nodded. He did not defend himself.
“I cannot make amends to those who are
gone,” he said.
“No.”
“But I can ask what might be done for
those who remain.”
Wiggins looked at him then. The question
was so unlike the old Holmes that he almost failed to recognise it.
“There are boys still,” he said. “Same
streets. Same hunger. Some clever. Some not. Most just trying to get through
the day.”
“What would help?”
Wiggins thought. “A place. Not a charity
school where they get beaten for being slow. Somewhere they can learn a trade,
read, eat, sleep safe. Somewhere a boy can ask a question without being told to
shut his mouth.”
Holmes listened.
“I cannot establish such a place alone,”
he said.
“Nor can I.”
“But perhaps we need not do it alone.”
The words were quiet. They were not a
promise yet. Wiggins had learned to be careful with promises. But they were a
beginning.
They spent the afternoon discussing
practicalities. Holmes knew a clergyman in London who ran a night school.
Watson might know a doctor willing to help. Mrs Bell could perhaps recommend a
respectable matron. Wiggins knew the streets and the children. For once, his
knowledge of poverty might be used not merely to locate a criminal but to
prevent a child from becoming one.
When Wiggins left, Holmes walked him to
the gate.
“I am glad you came,” he said.
Wiggins felt the old longing rise in him,
but it no longer ruled him. “So am I, sir.”
Holmes hesitated. “Wiggins—”
“Yes?”
“I am sorry I did not know how to be what
you needed.”
Wiggins looked at the man he had once made
into a father in his imagination. He saw the limitations plainly now: the
reserve, the pride, the extraordinary mind that could miss the simplest human
need. He also saw a man trying, late in life, to understand.
“I know,” Wiggins said. “I think you do
now.”
Holmes held out his hand.
Wiggins took it.
It was not an embrace. It was not the
childhood he had wanted. But it was honest, and he had become old enough to
value that.
X. The Last of the
Irregulars
The room above Mrs Bell's lodging house
became the first office of their small enterprise. It was not much of an
office. There was a desk with one short leg, two chairs, a shelf of books, and
a notice pinned to the door announcing that boys could come on Tuesday and
Thursday evenings to learn reading, arithmetic, and useful trades.
Holmes supplied money quietly. Watson
found a doctor. A clergyman arranged the use of a parish room. Mrs Bell took
charge of the practical matters and frightened three committee members into
doing more work than they had intended. Wiggins found the boys.
Some came because they were hungry. Some
came because they were cold. One came because he wanted to learn to draw maps.
Another wanted to know how engines worked. A girl named Elsie came with a split
lip and a fierce determination to read every book in the room.
Wiggins did not promise that the place
would save them. He knew better than to promise salvation to children who had
been disappointed too often. He promised supper on teaching nights, a warm
room, and adults who would listen before they judged.
The first evening, a small boy stood in
the doorway and asked, “What's the catch?”
Wiggins recognised the question. He had
asked it himself a lifetime earlier.
“No catch,” he said. “You come in, you
learn what you can, and you eat.”
“Have to say thank you?”
“If you feel like it. But you don't have
to earn your supper by being grateful.”
The boy studied him, then stepped inside.
Holmes visited once, without announcement.
He stood at the back while Wiggins helped a child sound out a sentence. The boy
stumbled over a word and grew red with shame.
“Take your time,” Wiggins said. “The word
isn't going anywhere.”
Holmes watched quietly. Afterwards he told
Wiggins that the room was well run.
“It's not a case, sir,” Wiggins replied.
“No,” said Holmes. “It is more difficult.”
They did not become father and son.
Wiggins no longer needed to force that shape upon their acquaintance. They
became, instead, two men who had once stood on opposite sides of an arrangement
and had learned, imperfectly, to see one another.
On certain nights Wiggins still missed the
old Irregulars with a pain so sudden it seemed to stop his breath. He missed
Billy's jokes, Annie's quick temper, Neddy's impossible climbs, Sam's solemn
questions. He missed the boy he himself had been: hungry, sharp, hopeful, and
certain that a great man might change the world simply by noticing him.
He kept their names in a small notebook.
Beside each name he wrote what he remembered. Not how they had died, or where
they had vanished, but the things that made them particular.
Billy could whistle like a constable.
Annie could outrun a hansom. Neddy could climb brick as if it were a ladder.
Sam loved oranges. Peter could mend a torn coat with astonishing neatness.
The notebook became a record of lives, not
losses.
Years later, people would speak of the
little night school as a useful institution. They would praise its benefactors
and mention Holmes's contribution. Wiggins never corrected them, but he knew
the truth was larger. The place had been built by children who had not
survived, by a boy who had grown into a cabman, by a woman who believed in
clean sheets, by a doctor who had never stopped caring, and by a detective who
had arrived late but had, at last, listened.
One evening, after the pupils had gone,
Wiggins stood outside the room. London was damp and loud. A cart rattled over
the stones. Somewhere a child laughed.
He looked down the street, half-expecting
to see the old gang running towards him, caps askew, faces bright with
mischief.
No one came.
He felt the ache. He let it come. Then he
went inside and put another coal on the fire.
There would be boys tomorrow.
And this time, when they called him,
someone would answer.
Epilogue. A Light in the
Window
In later years Wiggins would sometimes
drive through Baker Street after dark. The old house had changed hands more
than once. Its windows glowed with other people's lives. He no longer slowed
the cab in the hope of seeing a familiar shadow behind the glass.
He had learned that memory was not a place
one could return to. It was a room carried inside the heart, and some nights
the door opened of its own accord.
He still thought of Holmes. He still
wished, in a corner of himself that had never quite grown up, that the great
detective might once have put a hand on his shoulder and said, “You are one of
mine, Wiggins. I shall see you right.”
But he no longer waited for those words.
He had learned to say them to the children
who came through the door with wet shoes and wary eyes. He had learned that
affection was not made real by the grandeur of the person offering it, but by
the small acts that followed: a meal kept warm, a lesson repeated, a coat
found, a name remembered.
One winter evening, a boy stayed behind
after class. He was thin, quick-eyed, and carried the watchful expression
Wiggins knew too well.
“Mr Wiggins?”
“Yes, lad?”
“Do you think I might make something of
myself?”
Wiggins looked at him. For an instant he
saw every boy he had ever known, and himself among them.
“I think,” he said carefully, “you already
are somebody. We'll work out the rest together.”
Outside, the fog moved along the street.
Inside, the lamp burned steadily.
Wiggins closed the door against the cold.